Dog (book)

I just finished reading "Dog" by Michelle Herman and I have to say that it has been a very long time since I read something that inspires me.  Not only is this a fun book to read (if you're a dog owner) but it successfully portrays how a dog can impact a single person's life.  I highly recommend it.




You can find more info about this book HERE

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Lo que quieras (What you want)

Evanescence

Do what you, what you want	Haz lo que tu, lo que tu quieras
If you have a dream for better	Si tienes un sueño para lo mejor
Do what you, what you want	Haz lo que tu, lo que tu quieras
‘til you don’t want it anymore (remember who you are)	Hasta que ya no lo quieras (recuerda quien eres)
Do what you, what you want	Haz lo que tu, lo que tu quieras
Your world’s closing in on you know (it isn’t over)	Tu mundo se te esta cerrando (no se ha acabado)
Stand and face the unknown (got to remember who you really are)	Párate y enfréntate a lo desconocido (tienes que recordar quien eres de verdad)
Every heart in my hands	Cada corazón en mis manos
Like a pale reflection	Como una reflexión pálida
Hello, hello, remember me?	Hola, hola, ¿me recuerdas?
I’m everything you can’t control	Soy todo lo que no puedes controlar
Somewhere beyond the pain	En algún lugar mas allá del dolor
There must be a way to believe	Debe haber una manera de creer
We can break through	Que podemos abrirnos paso
Do what you, what you want	Haz lo que tu, lo que tu quieras
You don’t have to lay your life down (it isn’t over)	No tienes que dejar tu vida a un lado (no se ha acabado)
Do what you, what you want	Haz lo que tu, lo que tu quieras
‘till you find what you’re looking for (got to remember who you really are)	Hasta que encuentres lo que estas buscando (recuerda quien eres en realidad)
But every hour slipping by	Pero cada hora que pasa
Screams that I have failed you	Grita que te he fallado
Hello, hello, remember me?	Hola, hola, ­¿me recuerdas?
I’m everything you can’t control	Soy todo lo que no puedes controlar
Somewhere beyond the pain	En algún lugar mas allá del dolor
There must be a way to believe	Debe haber una manera de creer
Hello, hello, remember me?	Hola, hola, ¿me recuerdas?
I’m everything you can’t control	Soy todo lo que no puedes controlar
Somewhere beyond the pain	En algún lugar mas allá del dolor
There must be a way to believe	Debe haber una manera de creer
There’s still time	Todavía hay tiempo
Close your eyes	Cierra tus ojos
Only love will guide you home	Solo el amor te guiará a casa
Tear down the walls and free your soul	Destruye las barreras y libera tu alma
‘till we crash	Hasta que nos estrellemos
We’re forever spiraling	Estamos cayendo en círculos para siempre
Down, down, down, down	Para siempre, para siempre, para siempre
Hello, hello	Hola, hola
It’s only me infecting everything you love	Solo soy yo infectando todo lo que amas
Somewhere beyond the pain	En algún lugar mas allá del dolor
There must be a way to believe	Debe haber una manera de creer
Hello, hello, remember me?	Hola, hola, ¿me recuerdas?
I’m everything you can’t control	Soy todo lo que no puedes controlar
Somewhere beyond the pain	En algún lugar mas allá del dolor
There must be a way to learn forgiveness	Debe haber una manera de aprender a perdonar
Hello, hello, remember me?	Hola, hola, ¿me recuerdas?
I’m everything you can’t control	Soy todo lo que no puedes controlar
Somewhere beyond the pain	En algún lugar mas allá del dolor
There must be a way to believe	Debe haber un a manera de creer
We can break through	Que podemos abrirnos paso
Remember who you really are	Recuerda quien eres en realidad
Do what you, what you want.	Haz lo que tu, lo que tu quieras.

under- something

I sometimes tend to feel like I don’t maintain a good mood when I am at home and I am a bit reserved because I am not sure how much I can be myself.  Somehow, I knew that my different upbringing and my excitable nature would not be welcome to many people outside of my culture.  So, the other night, I was playing video games with my boyfriend and we were drinking beer and listening to music.  I was having a very good time.  It felt just like when we had just met and used to stay up late listening to each other’s music over some drinks.  In this occasion I was getting a little too animated and vocal when I got excited about a game.  I noticed that he didn’t really like my excitement outbursts but I brushed his reaction off as unimportant because I thought that he would get used to it.  I didn’t censor myself and so after a few hours of playing and during a particularly difficult and close match on a video game we were playing, he shut me up right after telling me to stop playing the music that I was playing.  Not only did that hurt my feelings but it also made me feel controlled and under appreciated.  He had told me that it was my heavy rock music that he didn’t like but he shut me down when I was trying to play something else.  He said that he liked seeing me happy but at the same time he yelled at me when I got excited an I'd scream a little. 
I have been thinking about what this all means and unfortunately, I am smart enough to recognize that he doesn’t really like a big part of who I truly am.  He can’t get past the superficial sounds of some of the music I like and just share it with me just like he can’t just sit there and laugh and scream with me when there are things that stimulate me. So, all of those things make me feel controlled and I don’t like it.
I feel rejected and controlled but I feel conflicted because I agree with setting limits especially in a relationship and our interactions with each other because that allows us to successfully live together and enjoy each other’s company.  However, I do not like feeling controlled because I don’t like to be controlling myself and in my mind once someone starts controlling the other, then, that’s when I start feeling contempt for him because we are no longer in a balanced place….

 in this new place one person calls the shots and the other one hurts.

crazy stupid mood

I hate how sometimes little things change my mood so much.  One of the things I truly hate is being yelled at.  I think it might have something to do with how I grew up but it gets me every time.  I was in such a good mood.  Not happy but more of a pensive mood, still good. But not anymore… I waited a little bit to write and as I am writing this I have begun feeling much better.  Hmm…. writing is therapy for me.  Too bad it makes me feel weird and random.

Saturday off

It has been two months since I moved to Louisiana.  I just hit me right now that it is the 14th.  I am sitting on the floor battling my legs’ numbness, watching a really weird movie all by myself and I can’t stop feeling very sad and lonely. 

I thought that I would be able to write more but that’s it. 

Changing zip codes

The time has come to explore other places.  I have been waiting for this moment for a few years and I am extremely happy that it is finally happening. I long for the opportunity to explore a new place with my boyfriend, for my dogs to get regular walks and for the chance to reinvent myself.  When you have been living in the same place with the same people, it can be a challenge to allow yourself to change.  Everyone expects something and while change is good for you, other people might not welcome it very easily. Ultimately, I don’t really care what anyone thinks but I do consider it because I like to have friends. 

My apartment is starting to look pretty empty and while it makes me a little uneasy it also makes me feel excited about the future and its uncertainties.

Ah, the duality of life.  How sweet it is to acknowledge that I am a little scared but I am looking forward to this move, all at the same time.

This will also be a great opportunity to get to know my boyfriend better than I know him now. I hope that everything that we learn from each other on this adventure is mostly positive and allows us to strengthen our relationship.   I would hate it if the opposite happened. But I will try not to think about those things. 

Tomorrow is the day that we will set a date… it all depends on one thing but I will talk about that when the time comes. Right now I’m just going to sleep and await that moment…