A little about my social life

It is quite late, or extremely early.  It depends on how you look at it.  4:37am on a Sunday Morning. A long time ago I realized that I isolated myself from everyone while I was with my ex.  That cost me my individuality and self esteem.  It has taken a while to rebuild my social life and 20 min ago, while I was driving back home from Breakfast at Perkins with Mrs. Aquarious-T, I couldn’t help but feel very happy and lucky that I am able to spend time with multiple people on a given day, like today.  I am content spending all day alone at home but then I’m ready to go hang out with individual people at different venues.  Tonight I went to the Movies to see Harry Potter 7 – part 1 with Mrs. Pisces-L.  That was great.  The last time I saw a Harry Potter movie with someone that enjoyed it was probably when HP6 came out and I went to see it with a group of friends from my old job.  Connecting on that level with someone is extremely comforting. Then I met up with my friends at a country show.  It was nice to enjoy the music without having to start a conversation.  I did mingle with a few people at the bar but I wasn’t interested in talking with anybody.  After the show I met up with Mrs. Aquarious-T and we had a fun breakfast followed by a very interesting conversation until about 4am.  To some it might sound like a lame day but for me it is more important to be with people that I like than any other thing in the world.  A day spent with a friend or a loved one is more valuable than a day spent doing any other activity.  With that I’d like to thank all of those people that put up with me regularly, I know I can be difficult sometimes but I do appreciate your friendship.  You know who you are!

Getting Dumber

It really hasn’t been that long since I stopped going to school, only since the Spring semester, but I have noticed that I can’t think of certain things quickly enough.  I think I need to do something to exercise my mind.  Today I downloaded my Rosetta Stone to my new desktop computer.  I bought levels 1, 2 and 3 back in 2008 as a graduation gift to myself and the only level I have worked on is the 1st one.  It was 500ish dollars that I spent on this course and for different reasons I didn’t continue with my plan to learn French.  Today I decided that it is unacceptable to have the resources and not use them so starting today I will be studying French once again.  It is not enough for me to be bilingual as I have always wanted to learn French.  My mom pushed me to learn English because I would need it but I really didn’t want to learn it.  I don’t mind doing something because I have to but there has to be a balance between responsibilities and activities we do for fun.  Learning French I will do for fun and also because I spent a lot of money on this course.  It just HAS to be put to use.  So we’ll see how it works out… and hopefully it will help me to exercise my brain so that I don’t become dumber by the minute…

New Relationship…

Just when I gave up all faith in men I met Mr. Sagittarius.  It has been a whirlwind of exciting experiences since we got together.  I still can not believe that I am sitting here thinking about him while I have It’s always sunny in Philadelphia in the background.   It has been 5 weeks since we have been officially dating and I thought it would be a good time to sit down and ponder a little. 

Lesson 1 – Preconceived notions about certain age groups are not necessarily correct because we’re all different. I am talking about younger people… sometimes they are not as immature as I’d like to think.

Lesson 2 – Just because one person has treated you badly, you can’t assume everyone else will. 

Lesson 3 – Yes! there is someone that can keep up with me…

Lesson 4 – Never say Never… life throws us many curveballs and it is better to keep an open mind and to adapt to change.

Lesson 5 – there is always someone for everyone.

 

Life has taught me another lesson… we can not rush life.  Things happen for a reason and sometimes we have to struggle for a while in order to become a better version of ourselves in preparation for the rest of our lives.  I feel that I have learned a very valuable lessons in the last 5 weeks and I value and respect Mr. Sagittarius even more as time passes.  I never thought that I would meet anybody who got even close to Princess but this one has met and exceeded my expectations. I feel that I have found what I was looking for… a good friend to spend time with, someone I have learned to appreciate and to respect.  In my book, that is priceless…

surprise, surprise, really?

One day I woke up and I didn’t need you.  That day was the saddest day of my life because at one point I was willing to give my life for you.  It took a year of experimenting to finally come to the conclusion that we were never good for each other.  I wish we hadn’t spent so many years together.  I wish I had been wiser when I was young.  In some ways I am lucky to have lived through the hardships and the disappointments you brought to me.  Now I am a bigger cynic that I ever was.  I am sure that I would be a completely different person right now had I not met you when I was so inexperienced but I can’t help to think that maybe we would have had a better chance if I hadn’t been so naive.

I had a dream about you a couple nights ago.  I can’t remember it right now but I didn’t like dreaming about you.  Then you sent me that email for Thanksgiving and you made me remember going to Idaho to see your dad.  The awesome drive through South Dakota and that rest area… Drug wall, Montana, The badlands, Devil’s tower and the great Lava Hot springs…

I don’t know how to do this…

same story again…

Update: November 23rd, 2010.

Note: Due to a request by the person mentioned below, his name has been modified to hide his real identity as the content of my blog may hurt his current and future family life.  This blog is for me to express myself and it is not intended to affect the parties involved in any way. 

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September 3 Update: Mr. Aries got married on August 18 to Miss Unknown.  They have been together for approximately 2.5 yrs.  Apparently he didn't tell me he was engaged because he thought it'd be easier to persuade me to "spend time with him" if I only thought he had a girlfriend.

I am still chatting with him in hopes of some day inform his new wife of his behavior.

I really don't understand why men behave in this way.  What a disappointment.

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June 18th…

I am deeply disappointed today.  It all started last night when I was talking to Mr. Aries.  The origin of my disappointment is not that I was talking to him but what came out of that exchange. 
As a single woman I understand that when one has a profile on a “dating'” website there is a chance of encountering cheaters, liars, psychos and others.  Luckily, for me, this is not generally the case as I have been very lucky to only get requests from people who are single.  The elimination process helps me find out more about the person through emails, chats, txt, and possibly phone calls with the obvious exchange of pictures and in the past webcam. So I am prepared for liars but how do I deal with honesty?
So, back to last night’s conversation.  Mr. Aries had been flirting with me for about a week now.  He found me on hot or not and soon after we started chatting.  We found that we have many things in common and that we both would like to meet each other.  So last night he asked me if I’d like to meet him, to this I said yes and I told him he could take me out on a date.  So after he said he would love to take me out on a date and after reminding me how amazing and attractive and just overall amazing I am, he decided to tell me that there is something he has to make me aware of.  He’s NOT SINGLE.
I was completely and utterly shocked at this.  Then he goes on to tell me that he didn’t expect to find me or to like me so much or to be so attracted to me and that he was on hot or not for fun.  Also, that he is not happy in his situation (of course – they always say that).
Really? Do you think I was born yesterday? Of course I know why you did it… and I don’t approve of that kind of behavior.  See not too long ago I started seeing someone who “wasn’t happy with his gf” and he left her (for me? I really doubt it) and then went on to date me.  Well that person is no longer in my life and the most I’ll say about that is that he lied to himself more than he lied to me.
So to all those men out there… you do NOT go on a dating website and have an active profile to interact with other women when you have a woman already.  It really reflects poorly on you and who’s going to take you seriously after that? When it is obvious that you are not a man but a scared kid who doesn’t have the balls to either fix his problems with his girlfriend or to end it and start fresh.  Also, for men who can’t be without a gf please just grow up.  It is only in our moments of solitude that we truly know ourselves.  So, if you’re just jumping from one girl to the next you’ll never find out what it is you truly are missing and if you don’t love yourself then you can’t love anybody else.
To you Mr. Aries, please figure out what you want and make sure you close your meet me profile on hot or not.  If you’re not single you shouldn’t be flirting with other girls.  It is inexcusable so don’t be such a baby. Grow up.  Boys are overrated.  When you are a real Man maybe I’ll talk to you again.  Just so you know, I’ve already deleted you form my contacts.

 

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This blog was not deleted because it is part of my life and it contains my thoughts on the events that transpired this summer.  It is a way for me to go back and ponder on the decisions that I made.  Whether good or bad this is my space to be me.