surprise, surprise, really?

One day I woke up and I didn’t need you.  That day was the saddest day of my life because at one point I was willing to give my life for you.  It took a year of experimenting to finally come to the conclusion that we were never good for each other.  I wish we hadn’t spent so many years together.  I wish I had been wiser when I was young.  In some ways I am lucky to have lived through the hardships and the disappointments you brought to me.  Now I am a bigger cynic that I ever was.  I am sure that I would be a completely different person right now had I not met you when I was so inexperienced but I can’t help to think that maybe we would have had a better chance if I hadn’t been so naive.

I had a dream about you a couple nights ago.  I can’t remember it right now but I didn’t like dreaming about you.  Then you sent me that email for Thanksgiving and you made me remember going to Idaho to see your dad.  The awesome drive through South Dakota and that rest area… Drug wall, Montana, The badlands, Devil’s tower and the great Lava Hot springs…

I don’t know how to do this…