Danskin Tri 2009

Okay... this morning I woke up at 5:15am to go to my third Danskin Triathlon. Energy was great, I felt good... there were a few changes to the race and bike courses but I thought they were improvements. So during the swim leg it took me a while to find my rhythm in the water but I finally got it together and swam very comfortably. I felt like I had done a better job than in previous years. T1 was uneventful and the bike course was fun. A few rolling hills and it was mostly flat. I had a lot of fun during the second half and cruised at 20 miles per hour for the last 4 miles. When I arrived at T2 I felt strong and with energy. I tried to eat some banana but couldn't so I just put on my hat and drank some water. I started running and I felt good. My muscles were not giving me any issues and my feet (which were numb for most of the bike) were starting to get back to normal. My goal was to NOT walk and to keep running the whole way. I started at a slow pace and eventually changed to a faster pace but still comfortable. I only stopped once to chug some gatorade but kept running. It felt good to pass people. It was a new feeling since I am usually the one being passed by others. The temperature picked up a little bit but not to an extreme. I sprinted to the finish line and that felt amazing. Got my medal and returned my chip and then got my bottle of water which I almost chugged... then I got my picture taken and that's it... off to transition to get my bike.
During the race I felt good and strong for the most part. I did not get even close to my goal but I know that I can do better next year.


She Swims. She bikes. She runs. She Rox!!!!!

If men are complicated then women are impossible!!!

I've been single for about two months and during this time I have met a couple interesting guys. I enjoy their company and it is safe to assume they enjoy mine. Both are interesting in their own way and I feel good when I'm around them. My relationship with the first, let's call him Ed, is of need. Each of us has certain needs that the other can satisfy. I went into this relationship without expecting it to become anything more than a stress reliever but it has turned into a weird mess. Today I got upset because I realized that I am not part of Ed's life and yet he has become a part of mine. I've crossed the line and broken the boundaries that kept me safe at the beginning. Now I think of him all day and it upsets me when he ignores my messages. I am scared to think that I feel possessive of him when I shouldn't. I am pretty sure he doesn't care for me at all. He's never showed concern beyond that of a friend or an acquaintance. I know this feeling. I've experienced it before and I think it's dangerous. The problem is getting him out of my head.
Even Joe couldn't take Ed out of my head.
I try to be very clear with people about what I want and how I feel but I feel that with men that doesn't necessarily works to my advantage.
More often than not I am misunderstood and in the end I am the one that suffers the consequences.
Is there a way to make it work? Can women and men communicate effectively some how?
If there is such a way... I certainly have not been clever enough to figure it out.