I've been single for about two months and during this time I have met a couple interesting guys. I enjoy their company and it is safe to assume they enjoy mine. Both are interesting in their own way and I feel good when I'm around them. My relationship with the first, let's call him Ed, is of need. Each of us has certain needs that the other can satisfy. I went into this relationship without expecting it to become anything more than a stress reliever but it has turned into a weird mess. Today I got upset because I realized that I am not part of Ed's life and yet he has become a part of mine. I've crossed the line and broken the boundaries that kept me safe at the beginning. Now I think of him all day and it upsets me when he ignores my messages. I am scared to think that I feel possessive of him when I shouldn't. I am pretty sure he doesn't care for me at all. He's never showed concern beyond that of a friend or an acquaintance. I know this feeling. I've experienced it before and I think it's dangerous. The problem is getting him out of my head.
Even Joe couldn't take Ed out of my head.
I try to be very clear with people about what I want and how I feel but I feel that with men that doesn't necessarily works to my advantage.
More often than not I am misunderstood and in the end I am the one that suffers the consequences.
Is there a way to make it work? Can women and men communicate effectively some how?
If there is such a way... I certainly have not been clever enough to figure it out.
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