Bad thoughts

When does fantasizing become a problem? Is it healthy to think of someone else fulfilling an area that your partner doesn't fill?
Fantasizing doesn't mean you don't love your partner but it shows you what you may be lacking. Excitement?  Comedy? Tenderness?
I've complained about the same thing in the past but it is something that keeps reinforcing my idea that we are not necessarily "meant" to be with one specific person. You choose to be with someone and he chooses to be with you but is there room for change in the future?  If we become stagnant then the bond will sever and it could die. You could loose interest or look for a spark with someone else.
Those things are normal but they get annoying. I'm sick and tired of fantasizing about this guy and I making out. Surely you picked up on what is missing for me. I don't always want to have sex... sometimes making out is all I want but that's not something I can get with my partner so I just think about making out with a friend who obviously likes me. That is where my problem is.... I don't want to think of making out with a friend. I am afraid of being alone with him for extended periods of time because I find him attractive but I don't want to compromise my integrity or my relationship with my boyfriend.
I hate this feeling and at the same time I like it because it makes me 'feel'.

New blog but not a replacement

I wanted to let you guys know that I have a new blog that will be dedicated to my travel experiences.  Here is the page: http://nomadmcb.blogspot.com/

Feel free to check it... I will be adding things as I visit new places.  I hope you like it..

This one will remain my rant/diary/journal blog so please let those comments come in.  I appreciate your thoughts. :)

First day at the new job

It was long...  well let me explain a little more. 
It has been a long time since I haven't had to be in charge. I work at a call center and since I'm not a supervisor I just sit pretty and wait to get calls. That is why the day seemed to go so slowly, it is not that the job is boring or too slow but it is more an adjustment for me. I hope it doesn't take me a long time to adjust. So far it has been pretty nice. I am happy to have left my old job. I don't want to deal with a lot of stress right now.
The only thing that is a bit annoying is not having a clear expectation of when I'll be working.
Training has been scarse to say the least. Luckily I learn fast and I have been able to process calls on my own since day one.
I think I made a good choice for a temporary job. This company seems laid back, friendly and not overly demanding.
Only time will tell.