Staying in Wisconsin for a little longer.. for now

 About the first week of August:

This week has been a rollercoaster of emotions.

It all started a few weeks ago when I went to Georgia for work and for a job interview.  I loved the center manager and I liked the center enough to see myself working there.  I went to that interview with all I have and I impressed Mrs. D.  Working there I realized how easy I have it at this job in Wisconsin. I think that one of the things that set me apart is that I really like my job.  When most people dread going to work, I simply look forward to the daily tasks and working my my amazing team.  I like everyone in a professional level.  Like at any other company there are things that don't match well with our own personal interests and there are people who sometimes rub us the wrong way but I always keep in mind that it is work and I don't choose who I work with.  I think that is the biggest challenge at work because, to an extent, we do choose where we work but, unless you are a hiring manager, you don't choose who you are going to work with, and that can cause some conflict.
Getting back on track.  I have wanted an opportunity to grow professionally for a while and while I never expected to get the job in GA, I felt like I needed to apply for that position.
Not everything in life revolves around money but it matters to a certain extent.  I was disappointed with the offer but I was still interested in a professional level.  I feared that if I didn't take it that I would be stuck at this position for a long time.  I had never rejected a job offer before but this time it was different.  I have put a lot of effort in to building a safe and balanced environment for myself.  I don't long to leave Madison like I did last year and it is mainly due to the great group of friends I have. I don't think I am prepared to leave it all behind.
Also, there is Nisha's pregnancy.  Her puppies are going to be born soon and I need to raise them before they can go to their new homes.  Due to this last reason, as I was prepared to leave friends and family behind, I requested two months to move to GA.  My request was denied and I rejected their job offer.

It has been a couple weeks since and I am happy with my decision.  I know I made the right decision and I look forward to future opportunities that I may have whether they are in Madison or in a different state.  I learned that I will not give up my life for an offer that doesn't live up to my standards and while the opportunity was good for my professional growth, it did nothing for my personal happiness.

I feel like I have learned a lot in the last year and the most important lesson is to identify what is really important to me.  Today that is my friends and family.  The whole package keeps me sane and happy.  I didn't realize how lucky I was until I considered the possibility of being completely alone in a new city.

Dreams in the last week

I have been having really strange dreams lately.  I am not sure what is wrong with me.  I am not even thinking about such things during my conscious hours.  Why are these thoughts coming out while I sleep?  Last night I dreamed that I was getting married to my current boyfriend.  The dream involved my mother planning a last minute wedding where apparently my diseased grandfather was supposed to attend. I looked up the meaning of this dream and some of the options don't match so here is the part that would most closely apply to me with ony one change... I am not married but I am in a committed relationship.

To dream that you are getting married to your current spouse again represents your wedded bliss and happiness. It highlights your strong commitment to each other. It may also signify a new phase (such as parenthood, new home, etc) that you are entering in your life.�

 Since my boyfriend moved in with me about two weeks ago, I am going to assume that this dreams signifies that new phase in our life.

If someone had told me last year that I would be this happy today... I would have told them that they were crazy.  Time does heal all wounds and love exists even for those of us who are broken.

checking in

There have been so many things that I have been feeling lately.  Last week was difficult but I survived it.  When I have the mental clarity to write about it then I will.  Right now I feel like it's too close and I would fail at being objective.  I will say that the decisions I made and the things I've gained/lost because of those decisions are well worth it as I am very happy right now.  I will say that all of those feelings and thoughts have to do with work and love and the babies that will come any time soon :)