Yesterday me and my boyfriend celebrated our 8 month anniversary. I am extremely happy. I never thought that I could have a healthy relationship and I never imagined that someone would want to be with me and just me. I didn't post about the previous months because while important, they were not unique. We have had our past relationships and they've had different lengths of time. For me, the state of utter happiness in which I am right now has never lasted more than a few months into the relationship so the 8 month carries special significance. This is the first time that I can say that I've been happy for the whole length of a relationship.
I have to admit that I am afraid to lose this wonderful man I have. I am afraid that he will get bored. I wish I knew if he will ever love me. I suppose that worrying about it only shows how insecure I still am about myself. My previous relationship really caused deep wounds that are barely healed even though it has been two years already.
I think the best thing is to take one day at a time. Right now. I couldn't be happier.
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