Well, not really but some days I do feel hideous. Today for example. Never mind that I didn’t even try to look nice. I have been wearing sweats all day and a t-shirt. I just looked at a picture of my boyfriend and his cousin (?) and step brother and they all look so young and skinny… The only thing I could think as I saw that picture is… thank god I am not there because I would have been the only fat person in that picture. I also have been eating like a pig today… not really… just the oreos. According to my calendar I am 3 days away from getting my period. That shouldn’t be an excuse to put on 5bls and load up on chocolate, should it?
Every year I say that I am going to get thin but it never happens. Some say that I should learn to love myself the way I am but sometimes it is very hard. I say that while watching Jessica Alba in Honey in all of her skinny gorgeous latina beauty… I wonder what it would feel like to look like her… I don’t want to be her… I just want to be her size. It baffles me to be lucky enough to have a boyfriend… geesh… that’s totally crazy when you think about it!!!!
Hmmmm I suppose that I should stop complaining and hit the gym more often… eat half my meal and starve to skinny. Somehow, that plan sounds horrible, doesn’t it?
No comments:
Post a Comment